The Copper Beech

The Copper Beech

I was drawn to the shelter of a Copper Beech tree this week. It was a calling of my being, not my intellect. I felt connected to a life energy within.

The intuitive kiss

On a bus journey home, I pondered my blog post for the week. I gathered all my thoughts and feelings on what I listened to and noticed. Then, a gentle kiss filled my consciousness and I felt a wave of calm overcome me. I remembered a recent kiss: how we came together without reasoning and lingered in each other’s company. I “knew” it was right. We just did it. And I wonder how many other kisses in this world are the result of something instinctive, something centred in the core of our beings. Do we need to think about our kisses or can we just be content in doing so? I also used my intuition in another way. Continue reading “The Copper Beech”

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A man on a mission

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Each week, my aim is to present a psychological and/or spiritual concept that helps me love my life, and I hope this will be helpful for the general public.

Surprised by joy

I noticed that I was in a cheerful mood this week. Perhaps I was becoming more joyful. Alleluia! Perhaps I could bring it into my life as a whole. I found an opportunity to practise this out when I smiled even though the other person wasn’t smiling. I didn’t wait for her to smile first. I was not dependent on her affect to feel good or bad. “Joy starts with me,” I thought.

With my granny

I had a colourful moment with my granny (grandmother) when I said to her: “Granny, isn’t it beautiful when you let go of your own importance? To let go of your thoughts and feelings!” “Sure this is it,” she said. I chirped up, “Because when you do, you become more alive and free. You become more spontaneous and joyful.” “Sure I’m just the same way all the time. I don’t take things too seriously.” I rejoiced, “Sure that’s why you are so well; you have all the answers.” And we laughed. Continue reading “A man on a mission”

Connecting with the heart of the world

Connecting with the heart of the world

Nowscape

I came across the concept of the Nowscape recently from mindfulness teacher Jon Kabat-Zinn. He refers to it as the practice of choiceless awareness in which we let go of selecting specific objects of attention to feature in the field of awareness and to be mindful of, and instead, invite our awareness to be so spacious that it includes anything and everything that might arise in any present moment, just as a mirror does not choose what to reflect but reflects whatever comes before it.

When I walked through the streets of Dublin, I let go of zooming in on particular persons, places, and things. I began to realise that my perception of the world can be quite narrow when I do this, missing out on the wonderful array of colours, shapes, and sizes. I started to experience great freedom as my senses expanded to include my whole environment and I felt a greater connection with the heart of the world. For example, there were evenings this week when I felt like giving into my cravings for fast food and chocolate, but practising the Nowscape broadened my perspective, bringing calm, connection, and self-control. Continue reading “Connecting with the heart of the world”

Reaching for your heart

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I don’t want to reach for your heart like the way Donald Trump reaches for your hand – he clasps you and aggressively pulls you towards him, like a bully who wants to dominate. No, I want to reach for your heart gently, kindly, warmly and lovingly.

Generosity

Why do people reach out so generously to others? What compels them to act in such a way? The following words connected to St. Ignatius Loyola come to mind: “To give and not to count the cost, to fight and not to heed the wounds, to toil and not to seek for rest, to labour and not to ask for reward”.

Spreading good news

I reached out to those with mental illness through my radio interview on Dublin City FM, where I spoke of getting through the downsides of bipolar. I told the interviewer: “When I started to love bipolar, I started to love my life. And there’s great hope for people with mental illness because you can be even stronger than you ever were before”. My family said: “the interview was real, the mindfulness tips were great, and it was helpful for everyone”. And I was delighted to hear that my friend got a lot of tips from it too. I guess these responses show that I reached out to the heart of others. It’s great to spread good news on the journey of recovery! Continue reading “Reaching for your heart”

Expanding my heart

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Stirrings

A few things stirred my heart this week. First, it was the week of the awful Manchester (England) bombing when many concert goers were killed as a result of a suicide bomber. I remember reading the story on the bus to work and I was compelled to find out more. For this moment in time, I felt like a brother to these people. I wished I could have been there: to hold their hands, to pay my respects, to do whatever was needed. The world was watching. Life went on, but with a heavy heart.

Second, I listened to American Greg Boyle, founder of the largest gang intervention, rehabilitation and re-entry programme in the world. He spoke to the University of Notre Dame’s 2017 graduating class: “You go from here to dismantle the barriers that exclude, and there’s only one way to do that, and that is to go where the joy is, which is at the margins. For if you stand at the margins, that’s the only way they’ll get erased”. Yes, joy is to be found at the margins: with the homeless, refugees, our marginalised friends. I saw this message as an invitation to fully experience the interconnectedness of our human family in our ordinary lives. Continue reading “Expanding my heart”

10 Downsides of Bipolar!

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Here is a summary of my 10 Downsides of Bipolar, which was published on celebrity Niall Breslin’s A Lust for Life website. I was also interviewed on Dublin City FM

After the exploration of 10 upsides of Bipolar Disorder, I realised that I needed to examine the downsides too. However, this was not a dreary project as my main focus was to provide steps, hopes, and inspirations for the bipolar journey.

1) Depression: A lowness, a sadness, a lack of life crept in and I had to remind myself that this was not my fault. I cried out in depths of despair to dig a bit deeper, to hang on a bit longer and to just feel an ounce of life within me. After a week of raw pain, I felt an inner joy returning like the rising sun and my world became more external again. The late Carrie Fisher believed that soldiers of bipolar should have been issued with medals of bravery.

2) Mania: I chased my random thoughts around: “Go there, do this,” they said. I impulsively gave away my precious belongings and my mind was filled with sexual images. At times, my days consisted of a 10-mile walk; 10 activities; 10 pages of diary entries and more. Other times, I experienced a mixed mood of depression, racing thoughts and ‘voices’. I was treated at a psychiatric hospital with medication and I connected with my world through mindfulness. I have recovered so well and I am now living a very meaningful and fulfilled life. Continue reading “10 Downsides of Bipolar!”

Dysphoria

Dysphoria

Dysphoria is a state of intense unease and agitation which can occur in different moods of bipolar. Here, I focus on a dysphoria of the healthy balanced mood.

Skewed normality

“People with bipolar complain of a dysphoria,” says psychiatrist Bernard Murphy, “and they’re intolerant of this mundane dysphoric state. The barometer of normality is influenced by the memory of the manic or hypomanic episode. And they look on their own affect as being below par, and they want to tick over a little bit higher.”

Yes, the barometer of normality is influenced by my memory. When I listen to people, laughing excessively often comes to mind. I often see balanced mood as abnormal, totally boring and unexciting. And it is daunting because it takes effort to be present with people. On the other hand, when I meet others who are overly sarcastic and a bit dangerous, I try to calm down and turn away from their excessiveness. There is a struggle here between my inner and outer life. My memory of depression or low mood can influence the barometer too.   Continue reading “Dysphoria”